'It's been a long time since i came around, been a long time but i'm back in town, and this time i'm not leaving without you'- Song 'You and I' by Lady GAGA.
It has actually been a long time since i sang those lines. The last time i sang those lines at a karaoke, i got another song to sing, because i was that good. (Yeah i know you're thinking i'm showing off, well, so be it!)
Very often we ask for certain things that are usually completely in our hands to achieve, like happiness.
We all want happiness. All that we do every millisecond of our lives is to be happy. And if you're not, well then please stop doing what you're doing and do what makes you happy.
Having said that, we often wonder, 'what is happiness? How do i know that what i'm doing right now is making me happy? Am i happy? What does being happy mean?'
Well, let me tell you what is happy.
I don't know. I don't think anybody does.
But i'll tell you what singing, strumming my black beauty(PLUTO) and composing does to me.
And that for me is happiness, because i have failed to experience something better, more inspiring and soothing than that.
So, it's been days since i strummed my guitar or opened up my vocal chords, except for the shower time of course and it had been AGES since i composed something.
Now, i'm back from college and i have nothing to do, and i'm being lazy about picking up my guitar and strumming it because i know i have to tune it first, so i just fire up my laptop, thinking 'let's watch another episode of Sherlock'. Now the desktop flashes before my eyes and i see the 'Vocal Exercises' audio right in front of me and i think, 'well, let's see if i've still got the vocals to pull off a Whitney Houston'.
And my lip rolls, and aahss and ooohs start.Once i'm done with my warm up, i start off with the Whitney Houston classic, 'I will always love you'.
What i felt while singing that song is indescribable. It was extraordinary. I was the best i could be and i was damn proud of myself. I never really believed in meditation, but singing is my meditation because i feel so relaxed and least bothered about anything. I enter a place i didn't even know existed in my world and it's the best feeling ever. It makes me feel like, if i can do this, there ain't a thing i can't do in this challenging big-bad world as they say. I wanna believe in the world again and do everything i can. I feel energized, ready to take on anything and everything. Singing for me, is like a chain smoker's cigarette, a drug addict's shot of coke, only my singing purifies me, instead of intoxicating me. It's the only thing that makes me believe in God and that supernatural power that binds us. It's the first thing that comes to my mind whenever i need to count my blessings and all the things that i've been fortunately blessed with.
It's that one thing that would give my brains a kick and say, 'Damn girl! Why don't i do this everyday?' And then would start my craze about never wanting to stop singing, and then i would strum few chords on the guitar and voila! i get my new composition unless i go off because that's the only sign i understand, when it comes to resting my vocal chords.
And that's when i get my kick. And then there's no stopping.
My music and my vocals keep me grounded.
Get my back to my happy place where i belong and know that i would be truly happy.
My vocals get me back to my reality and protect me from the evils that surround us.
They bring me to my happy place i forgot i had.
And i come in happily singing to my happy place, 'It's been a long time since i came around, been a long time but i'm back in town. And this time i'm not leaving without you.'
This is happiness for me.
What about you?
