Very often i just switch off my phone in the middle of a conversation with my parents or my closest friends, for that matter, because i feel the need to cut off from MY WORLD, which consists of my family, friends, classmates, random people one keeps meeting here and there, and go in a trance like space of my own.
People often find it weird, they take it as one of those 'mood swings', but those who have known me for long, know that i often like to go into my own space randomly, out of the blue.I ponder over a thought for hours together, write a word on my laptop and keep staring at it, do the most unusual things, like talk to myself while taking all the stuff out of my wardrobe and then rearranging it, why? I really don't know. it just makes me feel light headed. Right now, even as i am writing this post, i have switched off my phone, i am in my space, my time. No phone calls, and stupid whatsapp messages asking me what is happening in college tomorrow or what songs should be performed for the upcoming programme? None of that nonsense. I know that some of my friends who i was talking to must really be confused as to why suddenly i'm out of reach, but then again, no one ever died without talking to one another for a day or two? So, that's the approach i have towards anything, is it gonna matter 5 months from now? HELL NO. And i need my time, so i go ahead and take it, i take a break from myself. I become a cold hearted, feeling-less, expression-less person who doesn't respond to anything that comes her way, mostly, because there is no means of anything,to come my way. I am invisible for that some time, i am non-existent. And honestly, that is the best feeling ever. That's MY HAPPY TIME. Because nothing is lost, no one is hurt and i am happy. Some may wonder that my facebook may be flooded in times like these with wall posts and messages, but no. That's not the case, precisely because, i am not on facebook. I have nothing against it, it's a great means of social networking and staying in touch with all your old friends and family, but i guess my time and space is just too precious, to be invaded by something like facebook. It's not like i was never on facebook, in my mid-teens i was like any other facebook addict, but for the past two years, i've been a non-facebook-er (if that's a term). Do i miss it? No. Not one bit. People that i wish to stay in touch with, are all on facebook, and hence also have an email id, so that's MY means of staying in touch. Nothing like having a mail in your inbox from an old friend, trust me. :)
So, to all those who think i have some 'mood issues', i don't really care what you call it and if you find it mean or rude, i really don't care, but just so you know, it's just MY TIME, and MY SPACE. No grudges against anyone.
:)
Cheers.
People often find it weird, they take it as one of those 'mood swings', but those who have known me for long, know that i often like to go into my own space randomly, out of the blue.I ponder over a thought for hours together, write a word on my laptop and keep staring at it, do the most unusual things, like talk to myself while taking all the stuff out of my wardrobe and then rearranging it, why? I really don't know. it just makes me feel light headed. Right now, even as i am writing this post, i have switched off my phone, i am in my space, my time. No phone calls, and stupid whatsapp messages asking me what is happening in college tomorrow or what songs should be performed for the upcoming programme? None of that nonsense. I know that some of my friends who i was talking to must really be confused as to why suddenly i'm out of reach, but then again, no one ever died without talking to one another for a day or two? So, that's the approach i have towards anything, is it gonna matter 5 months from now? HELL NO. And i need my time, so i go ahead and take it, i take a break from myself. I become a cold hearted, feeling-less, expression-less person who doesn't respond to anything that comes her way, mostly, because there is no means of anything,to come my way. I am invisible for that some time, i am non-existent. And honestly, that is the best feeling ever. That's MY HAPPY TIME. Because nothing is lost, no one is hurt and i am happy. Some may wonder that my facebook may be flooded in times like these with wall posts and messages, but no. That's not the case, precisely because, i am not on facebook. I have nothing against it, it's a great means of social networking and staying in touch with all your old friends and family, but i guess my time and space is just too precious, to be invaded by something like facebook. It's not like i was never on facebook, in my mid-teens i was like any other facebook addict, but for the past two years, i've been a non-facebook-er (if that's a term). Do i miss it? No. Not one bit. People that i wish to stay in touch with, are all on facebook, and hence also have an email id, so that's MY means of staying in touch. Nothing like having a mail in your inbox from an old friend, trust me. :)
So, to all those who think i have some 'mood issues', i don't really care what you call it and if you find it mean or rude, i really don't care, but just so you know, it's just MY TIME, and MY SPACE. No grudges against anyone.
:)
Cheers.
