I would never refer to myself as a murderer
I
answered the police officer
Sitting
there fearlessly
I’m
sure he has nothing to worry,
Being,
after all, a 'man' that he is
I
thought all this to myself,
While
he flipped through my criminal record,
Although,
all I did was try to erase, what was wrong.
And
that’s when my mind traced back,
To
that life changing night.
I
deliberately went out at 3 AM
To
prove to myself
That
I can be a woman and walk out
Maybe
that was lame,
But
I ‘took’ and I ‘gave’
a chance to my lane.
A
chance to society and to the ‘man’
To
tell me and prove me
That
we’re at least heading towards a change.
Just
when I was about to be proud of my lane,
Maybe
pass a smile to all that had changed,
Tell
the passers-by ‘I trust you’
And
we’re all just the same,
I
felt a pinch right at my waist
And
turned to watch the man run in a haste.
I
tried to ignore and run back home,
My
heart pounding faster than ever,
Thoughts
of my life changing forever,
Rushing
through my brain.
But
then,
I stopped
and thought to myself
He’s
not a man,
But
just some muck in MY lane.
I
walked and I thought,
I
wish I could trust.
I
jogged and I felt,
I
want to trust.
I
ran and I yelled,
‘I will
trust, you muck!’
I
could see the grin right on his face,
And
I thought to myself, that’s sadly a pretty face.
Well,
maybe I don’t have to bother with that.
I
could aim for, what not me, but only his kind have.
And
that’s when I kicked him right between his legs
I
laughed as all the childhood kicks and punches
With
my brother, came rushing back.
As
he was getting lathered with whips and rods,
By
people who had my back
I
smiled to myself, and looked around,
Turns out I CAN trust at last.
I told
the people maybe we should cut him some slack
And
give him a moment to relax
And let him witness this moment of all those people,
Filled
with anguish, wanting to erase him.
Erase
this muck from our society
Erase
this one who is doomed,
And
with pity, I let him go.
Sitting
in front of me now, he filed a complaint
Poor
little boy says, I attempted to murder him
But
I tell the officer what it really was,
It
was not an attempted murder,
But
instead an attempted eraser.
An attempt at Erasing this muck who calls himself a man
An attempt at Erasing
the reason why we can’t trust our own lane
An attempt at Erasing
the reason why we can’t trust our fellow countrymen
An attempt at Erasing
the reason, why I became an Eraser.
So
here I am in front of you,
I would
never refer to myself as a murderer
Because
on that life changing night,
I became an Eraser.
Although,
this time I let you go,
But
remember
If
need be, I will erase you again,
And
this time forever.
boi
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